Understanding Saturn Returns — You Are the Master of Your Life

There are times in a person’s life, where the road traveled seems to have reached its end. Where all hope has diminished into little particles floating around the air, aimlessly wandering around the body unable to grasp and formless to the eye. Perhaps in these moments, we feel like there is nothing left to live for, and hope is always out of our reach. We might ponder on what is the meaning of life? What is the purpose for all of this pain and suffering being experienced? The most painful of all can be when we desperately try to grasp for our own meaning and sense of self in the world, only to arrive feeling clueless or confused, which feeds into the bottomless pit of doubt, worry and sorrow.

When I first began to experience these things around the age of 28/29 it wasn’t just depression untreated, or some sort of psychological disorder manifested into the spotlight. I had just lost my business, my savings were diminishing, and I had no clear vision of what the future could now hold. Those whom I thought I could trust showed they were both, Jekyll and Hyde, and I was angry, frustrated and sad.

I can recall periods of time, as I relentlessly hung up the darkest sheets I could find on the hinges of all my windows. If I could make the world dark, and just sleep my days away I wouldn’t have to face the reality of light in front of me. I spent a whole summer in this pain. Everything was all glorious, sparkle and shine until one day, it wasn’t. Those closest to me hurt my trust and…